What 2025 Taught Me: Joy, Silence, Trust & Living from the Heart (Ep. 49)

As we arrive at the close of 2025 and move gently into the Christmas season, I’m inviting you into a deeply personal solo episode, a heartfelt reflection on the year that has been.

This episode isn’t a list of achievements or milestones. It’s a sharing of what changed me, what softened me, and what brought me home to myself.

2025 has been a year of choosing, of choosing love over obligation, ease over struggle, trust over fear, and authenticity over expectation. 

In this episode, I reflect on the profound lessons that unfolded when I began doing things simply because I loved them, and allowed life to meet me there.

You’ll hear reflections on:

• Creating community in ways that truly felt nourishing and sustainable
• Letting go of stress and honouring what’s convenient and joyful
• Women’s circles, singing circles, spiritual book clubs and forest gatherings
• The power of silence, space and being with yourself
• My first experience of counselling and what it taught me about welcoming all emotions
• Working with plant medicines in a sacred, intentional way
• Transforming my relationship with pain from resistance to curiosity
• Trusting life, travel, money and timing
• Experiencing oneness through music, mantra and devotion
• Deepening authenticity in relationships and what that has brought into my life

This episode is an invitation to slow down, to listen inward, and to reflect on what your year has been asking of you.

I also share details about a free live workshop I’m offering on 31st December,

 Rooted & Ready, where I’ll guide you through a five-step process to help you move into 2026 aligned, grounded and open  without pressure, resolutions or force.

If you’re craving more ease, more joy, more truth and more connection in your life, this episode is for you.

✨Free Workshop: Rooted & Ready – 31st December, 10am (online)
Replay available for 48 hours

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Thank you for being here, for listening, and for walking this path with us.

With love,

Hann

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Yes. Welcome to the Holistic Health Sisters podcast of Wellness and Real Life Sisters Hannah Carr and Sarah King from the Holistic Health Collective. In this podcast, we're going to be sharing our passion for, of course, holistic health, but also spirituality, healings, hormone, plant medicine, seasonal living, our love of nature, and our love of community. So we are gonna invite you to take a pause and take a nice deep breath. And join us on a path of healing, of self-discovery and self-love, and of stepping into the brilliance of who you really are. This is a podcast for the seekers out there. Those of you who know there's more to life than just surviving or going through the motions, and you want more, more health, wealth, happiness, love, compassion, connection, trust, surrender. And more faith. And you want that for others too. So we can make this world a better place for us all. So go and grab a cup of ceremonial grade cacao and join us as we explore what moves through us, that which is divinely led, so we can all move from fear to walls. More faith. Thank you so much for being here with us today. Welcome to this solo episode with me, Hannah Carr, and I'm recording this at the end of 2025 just before the Christmas period, and I thought it would be a wonderful time to do a little bit of a review of my year of 2025 to share some of the profound lessons I've had this year. And to share some things that may be able to impact you, to help you grow, to inspire you as well. So let's dive in. I really feel like this year has been a year of me choosing to do things simply because I love them. More so than any other year of my life. So it was sort of from a business perspective, but also just from a, what lights me up perspective. But some events that I run now regularly, I was able to let go of the stress of running the events. So I'll give you an example. In the past I've run women's circles and I've hired venues. When you hire a venue, oh, there's lots of things that go along with it, but I've been to venues where someone hasn't been there to open up, or you get there and the floors need mopping up or the building's cold. There's a worry that is there gonna be enough people to cover the costs and to make it worthwhile as well for you to actually hold the event. It takes a lot of preparation, you know, even time just arriving early, cleaning up at the end to hold any kind of event, takes a lot of. Effort on behalf of the space holder, and I really love those events, but they wasn't. Always joyful to hold. So I wanted to find ways that was easier to do things, and I guess for the first time in my life, convenient for me. So an example of me before is I'd probably hold a women's circle in the evening because I knew that's where most people could make it. But that was challenging for me because I've got kids myself. My husband's usually home, but not always home. And so when I'd book an event in advance. I wouldn't really know if my husband was gonna be there that night or not. And I'd have to contend with things like, traffic and parking and arriving somewhere on time. And when the kids were a little bit younger, they're not really wanting me to go out in the evening'cause they love mommy putting them to bed. And this year I thought what would happen if I just run a women's circle in the middle of the day in my house at a day and time? That's convenient for me. Well, I could try and these have been the most popular, most heart led, most deep containers in a women's circle that I have held. Lots of women have said, yes, probably on average, about 10 women, which is about the right amount for my home, have said yes. And they come every other week, and I've had the same people come in for a long time now. So we are creating deep bonds together, deep friendships and a lot of love, which enables a circle to move a lot deeper. So that's one example of something that I've done, which making things easier for me and coming from a place of love. And I love singing. I'm not a professional singer or anything like that. I just realized that it makes me feel really good and I wanted to bring them into my women's circles. I can't re remember if it was this year or last year that I added a little bit of singing at the end of Circle to raise the Vibration, and I could see that not everyone in the circle was comfortable with singing. So just because you like Women's Circle doesn't mean you necessarily like singing. I thought, do you know what? I'm gonna separate it and I'm gonna start a singing circle. So this is from someone with, no professional experience of singing, but just wanting to sing, to collaborate, to have fun. And so what I done was I set up a singing circle and it was simply on a donation basis. It was a really, really low cost investment for people. Uh, just honoring my own time, my own investment into providing things like, herbal teas and even just like printing lyrics and that kind of thing. And again, they have been so joyful. We've had circles outside on a community piece of land. We've had circles outside of my garden. We've had circles inside. We've had circles with some dancing in them. It's just been so much fun. I also read a lot of spiritual books generally in my life. And sometimes I wish I could discuss like the themes of the book with people. But obviously you don't always know people who are reading the same book at the same time as you. So I decided to start a book club, but a spiritual book club. And what I thought would be really nice would be to have people around for dinner. So it is kind of like a community event, all eating together, having fun together. And reading a book at the same time that we could then discuss over dinner. So that was spiritual book club. This was a free event for my community and my husband's involved in this one as well. And we run it again at a time that was convenient for us. And we'd done a Sunday and we'd done five till 7:00 PM which meant that our kids, they're a little bit older, so they go to bed later. We're not getting them ready for bed at seven or anything like that. So it was a good time. It wraps up sort of fairly early so we can get on with life, looking after the kids, getting them ready for school or college the next day, and. Again, it's just been really heartwarming, heart expanding. Really interesting to listen to different people's perspectives on the books that they're reading, and lovely to have a community around that. So what I'd love to share with you about that is what are some things that you. Absolutely love doing it. It doesn't have to be holding events. Another thing I love doing is getting out on the SUP board and the sunshine. So I've done that. Me and my friend put a date in at the beginning of 2025 for May. And it was booked months in advance, and we got out on that date. And then we had a beautiful summer of getting out on the standup paddleboards on the river. And there's other things as well. So, I love dancing in the Woods and I started, a woodland dance event with my friend Hayley, which actually morphed into something that we called, forest frequencies because not everyone come to the woods was dancing in the end. Some people would just bathing in the woods. And so we had this beautiful event as well. So how can you call in for next year? More of the things that truly bring you joy that are. It's easy for you to do at a time that's convenient, that lets your heart expand and that you have no expectation on how it's gonna turn out. I think that was a really wonderful thing that I'd done this year, and I'm definitely gonna be continuing that. Another thing that I've done was I've started my first year of counseling, so I've never had counseling in my life. Never really felt particularly that I needed. It probably wasn't something that I was even that aware of if I have had parts of my life when I could have done with it, and I've done a lot of self-development and personal growth over at least the last 10 years. And I just felt like I was at a point when I could benefit from having a third party help me with that work. And so I met the most wonderful counselor. I would describe her as a spiritual counselor. I think she describes it as soul work or soul path work. And so the language that I used to describe my life. She fully understands. So if I wanted to refer to astrology or, the time of the year that we're in, say for example, we're coming up to an Equinox or a solstice, she gets all of that and I believe she's deeper into the work than I've managed to get yet, so she can also stretch me. So I really feel that working with a counselor has been able to profoundly help me this year. One of the ways that she's been able to help me is every single thing that I want to bring to talk about, which sometimes I may judge myself over, so it might be, I'm feeling this way because of this thing, and often I might not want to be feeling that way. So, you know, frustrated, angry, irritated, let down, disappointed, any of those kind of emotions. And what she really allows me to do is to welcome, it all in, and this is part of our teachings anyway, but the hardest person to do it for really is yourself. So someone else to hold space for you is an incredible gift. So as I bring my feelings in and none of it's judged by her, it allows me to move into non-judgment about myself and get really, really curious about what's going on. I'll give you a quick example. A feeling that I can get into a lot is confusion, and when I brought this to my counselor, she said to me, welcome, confusion. So it's like, okay, welcome. Confusion. I haven't felt like that. I felt like confusion was a bad place to be. Confusion was a place that I wanted to get out of or away from or beyond, and she told me to welcome confusion. And the way that I saw it in my mind when we were discussing it was like, you've got to go into this washing machine of ideas, thoughts, emotions. So you are, let's say in front of the washing machine. And then you go into it. Because you're processing a lot of new things or you're taking on new ideas and it, it destabilizes you. It makes things confusing. And then you can come out the wash the other side and you're not in confusion anymore and maybe you've got a new perspective. And then more recently I will talk about silence.'cause it's also been one of my huge things this year. But I've spent a lot more time in silence and I really investigated confusion for myself. So I was in confusion at the time and I just really said to myself through a lens of curiosity, so what really is confusion? What's actually really going on when I'm in confusion? And I realized, oh, it's when I had a belief and I learned something new. And through fear, I'm holding onto the old beliefs. I'm not quite ready to let go of it, and there's nothing wrong with that. There's no reason to judge that as part of the human path, but maybe my soul wants to take on this new belief, but the two can't. Coexist together at the same time, they don't make sense together. So that's why I'm in confusion. So if I wanted to mu that move out of confusion more quickly, which is not necessarily the goal, but let's say in this example, I wanted to, I need to identify what is the belief that I had before and what is the new belief that I am playing with, that I'm considering. And how can I release the fear to move away from the old belief and how can I bring in more trust to take on that new belief more quickly? And that's what would help me move out of confusion. But also, you may be hearing from what I'm sharing here, that there is no judgment around it anymore. There is no need to get out of confusion. There is just an understanding of what is happening when I'm in it, not making that right or wrong. So. If you have never had counseling before, for me personally, it is something that I would recommend. But what I've heard from other friends who's had many counselors is like anything like a good massage therapist or someone who you feel is like not aligned to you. I'm not even gonna use the word bad, but someone that's not aligned to you. It could be the same with a counselor, so you might have someone who's really aligned with your soul and your desires in your life, and you might have someone who's. Not quite right for you at the moment, and that's okay. And to explore that and to work with different people and, to your feedback on energy and how you feel around them is wonderful. So I don't think it'll be fair for me to wrap up my 2025 without mentioning, the use of plant medicines. So I was someone in my life who's never tried a drug in my life other than if you count alcohol or sugar as a drug, or I guess pharmaceuticals when I was a lot younger. But drug, I'm sort of talking about party scene kind of drugs here. So I grew up in the era where a lot of people were talking about Leah Bett's and ecstasy. A young girl who lost her life and was really, really warned off drugs and. I'm grateful for that experience in my younger life, but as I've become more open-minded, growing on my journey, I started to get really curious about Plant medicines probably about five years ago now. I've worked with many plant medicines that have had a very profound impact on my life. Now, I will say here, most plant medicines are not legal in the uk. So you would need to go to other countries if this was something that you was interested in. But the names of some of them that I've tried over the years have been peyote mushrooms, ayahuasca, cannabis, HAPE, sanaga kambo, of course, cacao to name a few cacaos are a daily plant medicine, and actually even tea is plant medicine and some of the herbs from England as well. So some of them are very gentle and subtle, but still profound. And those are the ones where you really need to get quiet with and to have a journaling practice or a meditation practice to hear the wisdom, or maybe you can get into interpreting your dreams. With herbs like mugwort. But some of the other ones are a lot more powerful, especially the ones that aren't legal in the uk. So things like Ayahuasca. Things like mushrooms and the point that I'm at in my journey is any plant medicines would be used in a very sacred way. So honoring the plant, and there's usually some kind of diet leading up to before you use them to cleanse the vessel, so your body to cleanse the body. And also being in a place of a lot of trust and not fear. So if I was in fear and scared of the experience, that might dictate my experience, but to be in it is basically a place where you are ready. So a bit like the counselling, and I felt like I was at a point when I could just look at points of my life and be ready to grow from that. And it's the same with the plant medicine. So I'm in a place where I'm in, in a lot more trust and. Curious to any information, any downloads that can come through for me and not all of that information or that wisdom is always easy to integrate into your life, but taking the time to let it percolate is so, so important. I'm gonna try and find a few words to summarize my experience with plant medicines. I guess the first one would be profound. Another one would be deep insights, and I feel that they're helping me change the pace of my life. I can feel that I've moved into. A lot less stress, a lot more trust, and a lot more spaciousness, and I do believe that the medicines have helped me to have that experience. I mentioned silence, so that's something that I've been exploring. I'd say silence and space are two things that I've been exploring a lot more this year. So that actually come up in my counseling that I, it just came through for me that I wanted to sit with myself in silence. I felt like I needed to go away. And create an experience for myself. It was, I've actually done a podcast on it so you can go back and look at, there's a couple on silence, because the experience was so profound and I'm not sure before I would've been ready for that experience. So when you're in silence, there's definitely challenges that come up. So, you know, I had traffic noises and I felt angry that they were ruining my silence. Well, that's something within that needs to be felt and moved through. It's actually not about the traffic. That's about what's within. Um, I noticed a lot more subtleties in my life, so I noticed I could see my own energy field and the amount of presence that I felt was truly wonderful. And in the past, before this year, I don't really feel like I've had a very good relationship with spending time by myself, if I'm really honest. Spending time by myself didn't feel as good as it did to spend time with others. It felt a bit lonely. But I've really rewritten that story now in my mind to realize that my body needs silence. It needs space, and that feels really, really good to be with me. So I didn't know at the time when I had my silent experience that was gonna lead on to me creating silent retreats with Sarah and with my friend Haley as well. So we're holding our first one in January. That one is fully booked now. We will be holding another one in May over a bank holiday, and that's in Tonbridge in Kent. So it is really become part of my practice. Actually. This silence is, I'm spending a lot more time just by myself. So until now, I spent a lot of time giving myself to my family, and I've realized this year that I really do need time for my soul just simply to be by myself. And so often what that will look like is perhaps lighting a candle, putting on some gentle background, maybe mantra music. And then just spending time by myself and I can feel my heart expanding as I do that. I can feel my soul being nourished and I can feel that I'm getting happier day by day by giving myself that space and time. So I really can't recommend it enough. And that might start for you, like a walk in nature by yourself or sitting in the sun by yourself or, I don't know, getting some. Charcoal, some pencils, some pens, some paints out and drawing by yourself, creating some art by yourself. Some nature Art I'd done this year, which was a wonderful experience or maybe even a longer. Silent experience for yourself, whether that's held by us or you are holding it for yourself. It can be a bit more difficult if you're holding it for yourself, because if you are at home, you might have packages delivered. You might need to go to the shops. You know, the phone might ring this. It's a little bit more difficult to navigate life, whereas when you go onto a retreat. Sacred space is held for you without any interruptions, and when things might get a bit challenging, you know, there might be thoughts that might be a bit uncomfortable, or you might feel a bit awkward, or you might feel the need to talk when the space is held for you. All of that becomes easier to navigate. Oh, when I was talking about things I love, I didn't really get round to talking about mantras, so I'm gonna move into mantras and music now. But a number of times this year I have moved into the feeling. Of oneness, which is what we truly are. We all are one. You may have read it, you may know it. Have you ever experienced it? I've experienced it a few times this year. One time my soul left my body as I was falling asleep, and it was the most expansive, most wonderful, most freeing experience I've ever had. Just for a few seconds, I, I literally just got a taste of it. I also felt it in a kirtan, so devotional singing. I held hands with the two people next to me, and we were all singing, and as we sang. Ah, I didn't feel my body anymore, but we all felt one again. It's such an expansive feeling. And then I had it again within the last week and I was at a ceremony and we were singing mantra, and I could feel my heart expanding, expanding, expanding with the music until I realized. I'm not just listening to the music anymore. I am the music. I was at one with the music, and it feels like the best feeling I've ever felt in my whole entire life. It feels like peace. It feels like joy. It feels like expansiveness. It feels like acceptance. It feels like love. It's just wonderful. And then I have the. Feeling of the duality, of knowing that most of the time we believe in the illusion of separateness and that can make me feel really, really sad. And separateness brings with it conflict. It can bring with it war, it can bring with it theft, arguments, just all the more lower vibrational feelings and loneliness. That's a big one. Victim feelings, they're all kind of heavy and sad. And what I'm trying to really remember is that is all an illusion. None of that is real. But we wouldn't know what oneness felt like unless we knew what separation felt like. And so it's all okay. And what I would say to you about oneness is, is there anything. That makes you feel amazing. I'm gonna name a few that I've felt before to give you some direction, but yours might be really different to mine, but sitting perhaps on a beach in the sun, that can be a feeling of oneness or watching a sunrise or sunset. Definitely music or mantra for me or dancing. Making love can be a wonderful one for feeling the oneness, perhaps being with a pet or just out in nature in general. So it might be the woods for you, perhaps the desert, perhaps the beach. Holding a newborn baby or looking into the eyes of a newborn baby. There's so many opportunities for us there to feel it. And so if you've ever felt it, I invite you to. Do more of that in 2026. And if you've never felt it yet, I asked my husband once if he'd felt it and he said he wasn't sure. And I was like, if you, if you'd felt it, you'd know. But he actually is a fantastic golfer. And what I was asking him is when you are in flow state and you're playing golf and you're not thinking for anything else, and you're just in that flow state, that could be the feeling of oneness. Only you would know. And he is like, oh yeah, maybe. Yeah. When you're not thinking, everything feels easy. Mm-hmm. So. Even if you've not felt it, perhaps you've got an idea of the things that are close to it. Really have to expand your heart to get there. You really have to let go of all fear and be totally present to the moment. You can't be thinking about anything else like messages coming through, or you can't be worried about the time you were literally in a state of expanded consciousness, probably doing something that you absolutely love. And so. Inviting you to prioritize doing more of this in 2026, and actually, I'm really excited to invite you to a workshop, a free workshop that I'm running on the 31st of December. I've chosen to do it because I don't celebrate New Year's Eve and the old way that I used to going out and drinking because especially when my children were young, I realized I didn't enjoy the experience of waking up on New Year's Day with a hangover going. This is the beginning of a new year. I feel awful. Can't get off the sofa. Maybe the 2nd of January will be a better day. And also when my children were younger, it felt like, I don't know, for me personally, taking something away from them, taking away the magic of a new year because I had a hangover. And so what we decided to do quite a few years ago was stopped celebrating New Year's Eve, go to bed early. Often we would do a bit of, vision boarding on New Year's Eve actually. Go to bed early and then wake up on New Year's Day and have New Year's Day as a bit like our New Year's Eve and our family tradition is to go ice skating and to go out for lunch and just be present doing something fun on New Year's Day. And so what I really wanted to do this year was invite our community. So it is our membership, the Healing Portal are all invited to the session and then I'm opening it up, um, for you, a complimentary gift from us to you. If you'd like to join us, all you need to do is register and I'm gonna be going through a five step formula for 2026. It's not really about New Year's resolutions or even making goals, uh, goals with, soul I think we used to call it, so we used to make New Year's resolutions and then they felt all heavy and like guilty when you didn't stick to them. So then we done goals with soul, with what felt really good and really expansive and re and also you can make goals just about feelings as well. So it doesn't have to be. About achieving things. So you might say, um, a goal with soul is, I want to feel more peace in 2026. Well, what is it that you know that you already do that creates peace for you? So maybe that timeout in nature, maybe you feel the peace after a good yoga class. When you're in Shavasana, there's many things that can be that gateway to peace. Giving for others and doing things for others and helping people can actually really give us peace in our heart as well. We can feel really good about that. But this year I'm doing this five step formula, which is really about the five actions that you need to keep taking or it's not need to, it can keep taking. That will keep you aligned for the full year no matter what comes up in 2026, no matter what challenges we are presented with, if we follow this five step formula, you are actually gonna navigate the year really, really easily. So we're gonna meet at 10:00 AM on the 31st of December. Online if you want to come and you can't make that time, then I will record it and I'll send a replay out, which will be available for 48 hours. I will drop the link in the show notes, so come along to that session. It's called Rooted and Ready, and I'd love to hang out with you on New Year's Eve. Okay. What else was wonderful? In 2025, my relationship to pain changed quite a lot. So pre getting into the holistic health world and studying naturopathy. My relationship to pain was resistant. Like I didn't want to have pain fearful and wanting to fix it and fixing it would probably, I've never massively been into pharmaceuticals, but I had many years of having migraines and I definitely had very strong painkillers from the doctors that helped me get through that period. But I would also lean on things like, I've always been interested in homeopathy a little bit and, um, aromatherapy a little bit and what else would I use before I started naturopathy. I'd probably try to tolerate pain a little bit, so not try to fix it, but I suppose maybe distract myself. So maybe work or exercise through it. Yeah, so distract myself from it, but without actually taking anything. And then when I started naturopathic nutrition, I learned a lot about all the. Gifts from nature that can help us. So from herbal teas to homeopathy to, I mentioned aromatherapy, to healing foods, I obviously learned a lot about healing foods and then naturopathic techniques as well. So different, techniques that can help us heal our body in a natural way. Again, using the gifts from nature. So it could be things like ginger compresses, castor oil compresses, enemas. There's so many different naturopathic techniques that we can use to help us. I'm gonna say move stuck energy through the body. That's probably the best way to say it. But my relationship with pain changed this year. I might have made a podcast about it. I can't quite remember. I probably mentioned it at some point where I got really curious about. Not fixing it. Not escaping it and not distracting it, but just being with it. So really seeing pain as a messenger and the only way to really hear the message, the wisdom, would be to be with the pain or what does that mean? It means clearing the diary when whatever the pain is is present. And breathing through it. So a little bit like a natural labor where you're using the breath to move through what is typically known as contractions. In the more holistic world, it would be known as surges.'cause a contraction can be a negative connotation. So very careful with language not to put a a negative spin on. Something even through words. Remember, words are your wand and you are cast in spells with your words. So if you say contraction, it sounds a bit painful. Whereas if you say a surge, where's just an energy that's moving through you, right? An energy surge. So if I was with the pain. The way that I'd done it was I put headphones on, I listened to music and I was breathing through it. It moved so quickly through the body. I'm talking about a matter of days for something that would normally last weeks. I've got another little pain challenge that's going on in the body at the moment, and again, the body naturally wants to move into fear because that's what we, that's what we've been taught. That's the conditioning, that's what's all around us. It's in the news, it's in the social media marketing, it's in the language of others, and it's in the language of ourself and our self talk. So I move into fear and then I remember, ah, I don't have to choose that. So that's being the observer of your experience. I can choose to simply be present with what is here right now. So in this case, the pain. And pain in some cultures is actually seen as pleasure. So it depends what we associate with the pain. So think about, BDSM, right? And people using whips and that kind of thing. And some people like the pain. Think about what people have learned in the gym. No pain, no gain. People want to move through the pain to get the gain. So pain doesn't have to be negative, fearful. Or scary pain could be our greatest teacher, and that is the relationship that I'm having with it this year, is to be with it when it's present, to be curious, to journey with it. Another thing that I've done this year, and I've done a few times in my life, is when I've wanted to travel probably in the back of my mind is can I afford it? I have just booked things and made it happen. I found that once I have a goal, the money will just come in to support you. Because you are in the knowing that you've got to make it happen. So this year Sarah's with her husband and her husband's family in Italy for a month, and I went out for a week to join them. It's not very often that I travel without my own family. I love being with my family, but I also learned that I love having my own space as well because I get to do things. I like to do, for example, go on a hike in Italy and my kids would probably really moan about that, especially with the heat. Maybe I want to do a meditation or some chanting, whereas if I'm with my family, it's not impossible, but it's more challenging to do. Whereas if I'm by myself, I can do exactly what I want and please myself and really find out what it is that I love in my life. So booking travel and just trusting that I'm gonna be able to afford it, and you know, it might mean in very practical terms that you might have to make some sacrifices. Say for example, you had that travel coming up and you didn't quite have the money, but you buy a Costa or a Starbucks every day or. I dunno, you have a takeaway or perhaps you've got a gym membership that you're not using, you might shuffle things about, you know? But it might also be that because you have that target, that you're actually moving effortlessly towards it because it's important for you. And I think it is really important that, well, I'm gonna challenge myself when I say this actually, that we have things to look forward to throughout the year. I am studying the Course in Miracles at the moment. I think I'm on day 140 today. And what that's teaching is that you actually don't need to plan for your future at all. You literally live each day in the moment because I guess how could you possibly know what you might feel like doing in July today? Okay. This is like a higher spiritual perspective, so I don't wanna confuse you now. So if you're not in the place of living each day. As it is, so being truly present in the moment and not needing to plan, then I find that booking something in can help you. Achieve a goal. Maybe you are further along in your spiritual journey and you know that you don't need to plan for everything and everything is divinely aligned anyway. So that's the point of confusion that you could enter right as you're on the spiritual path is, oh, but I've just learned this thing that says that you don't need to plan. And oh, but I like to plan and I like to have things to look forward to. And as you hold onto both, you can get into the confusion and neither right, neither wrong. Okay, so then I would just come to sit with. What would I like to plan for this year? Do I want to have a plan for the future, for the advance, or do I want to play with this year living each day as it is in the present moment? So the last thing that I'd love to share that has been wonderful about this year and that I am so deeply grateful for is the people that are in my life. And I've really seen that I learn so much through. Relating. It could be friends, it might be significant other. It might be someone you don't like. It could be a mentor, a teacher. I'm just breathing into my heart and expanding it as I'm saying this to you, but the people that I'm meeting, I'm so. Grateful for. I feel that I'm moving into many layers of more authenticity with myself, and as I do that, I'm also meeting other people that are deeply authentic with their selves, and this is something that's really important to me. And I feel like it's given me a lot more richness in my life. So how can I describe this? If you're doing anything in life because you feel like you should, or even if you do something with like a half a puff or an eye roll, we've all been there, right? These may be things that are not completely aligned or things that you don't really want to do. Like I, I just feel like tech with the kids is a really good example. Maybe even like tech with ourselves. Is that we may agree to things that doesn't feel completely aligned with our values for a peaceful life. But actually when you really stick by what's true and what's important and what's authentic for you, even at the discomfort of others, you know, people might not like it. They might question you, they might push back, but you still stick to what's. Important and authentic for you. It is just a great feeling and you just start to call more people into your life that are also authentic. So people that are not just people pleasing or people that will tell the truth even when it's difficult, or people that see you to your deepest layers, even beyond words. It is really a magical experience. I really, really recommend getting more authentic with yourself, and you can do that by becoming the observer of how you're responding and reacting to things in life and where you're not responding in love. So like with that half and puff or eye roll or resentment, or any of those feelings. Are ways that perhaps you're not being truly authentic to yourself and in time if you want to, you can choose to change that. I really, really recommend it as a, a beautiful practice for your own evolution. So there are a few ways that have really made my 2025. Beautiful. So I've said there doing things because I love them and with complete trust. Um, I mentioned counseling, plant medicines, silence, travel. I mentioned the oneness and I mentioned friendships and authenticity as well. And music and chanting came up in that too. So I'd love to invite you to join our free workshop on the 31st of December what I've be doing is holding the space. For you to reflect on some of this for yourself. It's easy to listen to it on a podcast and then move on to the next thing, the next thing that we consume, or the next thing that we do, or the next challenge that's cropped up in our life. But are you allowing yourself the time to really sit with contemplations? So you can create a 2026, which is in total alignment with who you really are in the present moment. That's making me smile. Come and join us for Ready and Rooted, that link is in the show notes. And if you celebrate Christmas, I just wanna wish you and your family and your friends. A very merry Christmas. If you don't celebrate Christmas, then happy yule. Happy winter solstice. Happy slow season inward season, reflection season, and we will see you on the next podcast. Which will be right at the end of this year because we have our next moon on the 2nd of January. And so usually our podcast drops Just before that, we have also got a wonderful session coming out on Lucid Dreaming, so do keep your eyes peeled for that if you haven't already subscribed. To the podcast and that's a great way that you can support us. But I'd love to say a big thank you for all of your listens, your downloads, your feedback this year. This has been the year that we started our podcast actually, and it's been many years in the coming. It's one of those things that took a long time to come into fruition, and we are really, really grateful for you being part of our community and. Listening to the content that we put out there, and we hope that it helps you in some way in your life. Lots of love this Christmas this yule and see you soon.